domingo, 27 marzo, 2011

Lord, it’s such a task- being asked to discern a thing such as this.

For history, I was assigned to examine the life and doctrine of Aimee Semple McPherson and decide whether she was a heroine, heretic or hypocrite. Harsh. To place myself in such a place of danger is quite difficult, but then to be forced to analyze another’s heart when they claim to proclaim the Gospel of Jesus Christ my Savior- it has outright distraught me.

I deeply wish to find first hand words, writings written by Aimee herself, something besides a sermon or critique. I want to base my decision on information provided by Aimee herself, not info from anyone else, for everyone is [helplessly] bias.

El Shaddai, please, replenish me daily, wake me to hear Your Words with utter delight. Make me to long for all Your saints with the affections of Christ Jesus. Strengthen me with calm and peace to complete this assignment to the best of my ability, all in the perspective, continued perspective, of gazing deeper and deeper into Your eyes with the intent on knowing You, loving You and all that You love. I do love You, El Shaddai. A good night, You did make it. Amen.

CureKids! kids that will be physically healed as a result of El Shaddai’s lavishing love!

Bertha Maxwell; 2 years old;Awaiting surgery for burn injury

Lezina Kosmasi; 10 years old;Awaiting surgery for burn injury

 

difficult to think that here, in America, these types of injuries can be called simple cases and easily healed (what we typically refer to as “fixed”) while in other countries people can be made outsiders because of them…

These Times…

The stability (or instability) of my circumstances does not matter near as much as the stability of my mind. For the instability of circumstances/situations is inevitable. But the stability of mind despite the circumstance is what is going to keep me being me, and keep me under His umbrella, with a protected mind… by choice (& maybe even habit) acting in ways that spring from His righteous desires and commands.

These times, when I’m not sure I could really go in a deep study… who says a simple but repetitive practice of one piece of His Scriptures is not a deep study? it’s a study thru practice; seeing situations where I need to apply that specific Scripture (or concept from Scripture)… learning to see the signs, praying it over and over, and praying it for others. These times when it seems so easy to focus on myself and what I think I need—what if I simply drowned myself in praying Scriptures for others!?

Oh Lord above all, if I believe it’s already been given me as I ask You this, may it be so that I may receive it! Please!—be my strength and clarity to not delay! to run quickly! to run steadfastly! If it be so, 1000% for sure, it’s all You (for we both no none of that exists in me alone)! & oh it will be so! You are not finished, yet You will continue to transform!

Satisfy all my longings and fill all my hollow places with Your lavish and unfailing love! that i may love You and know You more than anything in my life! more than anything on earth may i please know You!

You.

Today, Lord You woke me up with the lightest head I have felt in months. Thank You thank You thank You!

this week’s Words were…

from 2 Corinthians 3:17

“Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”

-I ask Him to satisfy all my longings and fill all my hollow places with His lavish, unfailing love.

(“this frees me from craving the approval of others and requiring others to fill my ‘cup.’”)

--- Then, if someone takes the time to demonstrate love to me, that’s the overflow. I’m free to appreciate and enjoy it, but I don’t require it emotionally. ---

~Where the Spirit of the Lord’s lavish love is, there is freedom!~

from Matthew 4:4

‘MAN SHALL NOT LIVE ON BREAD ALONE, BUT ON EVERY WORD THAT PROCEEDS OUT OF THE MOUTH OF GOD.’ ”

from 1 Corinthians 10: 12-13

    [12] Therefore let anyone who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall. [13] No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

Those words; ‘satisfy all my longings and fill all my hollow places with Your lavish, unfailing love’… ‘then, if someone takes the time to demonstrate love it me, that’s the overflow and I am free to appreciate and enjoy it, but I don’t require it emotionally.’ …oh, how these words will permeate my heart for the rest of my life. They will, I know they will, especially now, in this season—I need His lavish and unfailing love, desperately. I know it’s not always a “good” notion to be desperate but when it comes to longing for Christ to satisfy all my longings and fill all my hollow places I believe desperate might just be the best state to be in. I now know that HE is the only one who can satisfy me and who I can rightfully long for and HE is the only one who will ever satisfy me.. so, in view of His mercy, being in desperate longing for Him is the best place I can be right now. ..as long as i take that longing and bow to Him presenting myself and all my longings and hollow places, and clinging to His Words [for man does not live on bread alone but on every word that proceeds from the mouth of God… bread,food and water does not sustain my life NO!- my life is sustained by the words that proceed from the mouth of God!

oh, how i wish with my heart that i could hear that reminder every minute every hour!

Oh, Scholarships.

Completed an application to the College JumpStart Scholarship… answered the question: “What are your educational goals?”

How do you think I did? (judged by content not writing style)

I am working to graduate from college with a lot more than a degree. I'm looking to study Communications with a concentration in Public Relations, in which I'll be able to apply my interests of Photography, Photojournalism, non-profit missions, language, the arts and simply being around people. I wish to learn the ways of my career by studying comprehensively and hands-on, as well as abroad. I am also planning on earning a minor in Spanish, Photography and possibly International Business. Although plans often change, I know I'll end up in a field that allows me to continue learning, practicing creativity and communicating for the rest of my days. Thus, I have great hope to find an environment in which I will learn, mature, grow, and daily strive to fulfill my potential.

Progress is Loss…

“Progress may feel more like loss than gain.” –Mason Cooley

…No, it won’t “maybe” feel more like loss. It will feel more like loss than gain. The progress that the Lord desires for me is not a progressing of my bettering myself but rather of me crucifying myself, descending myself and submitting myself. The ways of the Lord are much higher than ours that they hardly make sense when looking from our perspective. Progress that the Lord requires is exactly loss; loss of self, loss of rights, loss of pride, loss of superiority, loss of reputation, loss of limbs, loss of friends, loss of control, loss of sovereignty, loss of mind, loss of… you fill in the blank.

yes, yes His Holy and Perfect Way is a Way dripping with loss, loss of burdens, loss of sins, loss of shame, loss of fear, loss of death, loss of anxiety, loss of aimlessness, loss of meaninglessness, loss of hell, loss of bondage, loss of being a slave, loss of weakness, loss of weariness, loss of having no escape, loss of unreached dreams, loss of helplessness, loss of failure, loss of being an orphan, loss of ever being alone, loss of lack of options, loss of past mistakes, loss of hate, loss of inability, loss of having to depend on self, loss of everything that is not Him…

can you imagine any better loss to lose? His Way is the Way, & along His Way, you will lose everything that is not of Him… is this the way you are going? Is this the way you wish to go? You will lose everything that is not of Him, yet you will gain everything that is Him. You will gain everything.. if you will gain Him.

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