Some of the secret joys of living are not found by rushing from point A to point B, but by inventing some imaginary letters along the way. - Douglas Pagels

"Gracious words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the body." -Proverbs 16:24

"Foolish dreamers live in a world full of illusion; while wise realists plant their feet on the ground." -Proverbs 14:18

in prayer...

raising LT support
preparing for LT --> physical, mental, spiritual

seeking help, meeting with Messner
move forward with study abroad plans
be diligent in 

keeping anxieties in His hands
transitioning well
maintaining steady mental state
maintaining perspective

practicing what I know; lighten up & live it
making the effort and priority to see Wes, Rachel, Sarah and Sarah

Lord, this has been a neat, neat year. 

decompress.

decompress. unwind. untangle. free. unravel. unwrap. loosen. separate. make plain. smooth out. decipher. disengage. extricate. resolve. unlace. unknot.

unfold. be made known. evolve. materialize. form. realize. produce.

open or fan out. be displayed. develop. flow. level. open. paint. prepare. proliferate. radiate. settle. stretch. release. uncrease. shake out. uncoil. 

breathe easy. catch one's breath. collect oneself. settle back. take a load off. take ten. be or feel at ease. ease off. simmer down. soften. repose. take one's time. tranquilize. breathe. dream. lean. idle. slack. take life easy. at anchor. at one's ease. at rest. becalmed. deliberate. fixed. immovable. quiet. slow. still. undisturbed. unmoved. unstrained. untraveled.

extricate: relieve of responsibility, detach, disentangle, free, liberate, loosen, release, resolve, separate. make a distinction, discover. bring to light, delve, expose, root, uncover.

proliferate: grow, develop, diversify, expand, boost, build up, enhance, intensify, progress, raise, reinforce, rise, strengthen, flourish.

repose: restfulness, ease, peace, quiet, quietude, renewal, restoration. voluntary action: Sabbath, rest and be thankful, rest upon one's oars, unstrained, composure, peace of mind restraint, serenity, stillness, patience, placidity.

the thought of having Him in the yoke, because of who He is, causes an internal weightlessness

²⁸ “Come to Me, all ^[a]who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For My yoke is ^[b]easy and My burden is light.”

sitting on a log, dangling above a rocky stream.. water trickling, never ending.
you said the words you said you want to make me your wife one day

the next day, sitting above the waterfall, you asked.. so how did we get here? how did we move from 'no kissing', to kissing, engaged and making out next to a waterfall?

i responded by saying something about how i was already emotionally there... that it felt almost wrong, unnatural how much we had to fight to not show our affections physically... which makes sense, we're made to work that way - our outward actions show where we are internally...

you know -- we have gotten to talk a lot.. so we have been talking a lot.. a lot. a couple hours almost every day.

25 April 2013
oh, how my heart misses California. how the strands of my heart ache for that ocean breeze, that sweet air.


26 April 2013
Packin' my bags & living out of'em for the next three months. Can hardly describe the state my heart is in -- He's opening my eyes to see His ways like I never have before..

Thinking back to where my mind was a year ago,   

Life Group and House Church were so neat, special & dear to me heart.

The Lord your God is with you,
    the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
    in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
    but will rejoice over you with singing.” (Zeph 3:17)

It is God who arms me with strength^[a]
    and keeps my way secure. (2 Samuel 22:33)