I think I've been trying to see what my life would be like without Him... I mean, without acknowledging Him, worshiping Him, or intentionally seeking Him...
truth be told, it hasnt been terrible, i am still friendly, still making friends, still have happy days, still have passions... but at the end of the day when my head hits the pillow, i am empty. ive always know this to be true.... but when thinking about presenting myself to others for the first time and having to know what i believe... there's a sense of insecurity, & even shame because what i want to say i believe is not reflected in how i conduct my days... how i spend my time.
where is my heart? how is my heart? what do i truly truly love? what do i truly truly worship? what do i truly truly fear?
i want to give my whole self from Him, but i fear... what is it that i fear?!
what is it that is keeping me from giving my whole self from Him?