Late Night Ramblings

there is a grave difference between writing from the intellect and writing from the seat of emotions.

the battle between these two lands is an unending endeavor. however, since i have begun rising in the mornings and setting myself up for a productive day - i have found myself becoming more in touch with my intellectual side.

there is much more i ought to write through concerning these two lands. 

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came across some great life stories, blogs, and advocates for individuals with autism tonight.

carlysvoice.com/home | http://johnscottholman.com/ | http://empowerautismnow.com/

hearing from all of these people who are on the spectrum, aspies and such... those that have become writers, speakers, novelists, spiked national tv interest, and learned to embrace the beauty that is within them to then share it with those outside of them... hearing their voices, their stories, engaging with them - this just may be a great joy of mine that i best be engaging in on a regular basis to the benefit of everyone around me including myself..

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some of what's spinning in my own head tonight

i dont have a stuttering problem what i do have is a syncing problem...
often, my thoughts are moving so fast, and im so excited to express them, but they do not present themselves in coherent words... i understand the idea, i know what i want to express, but the words show up to me in a jumble & i fear slowing down to organize them b/c they may disappear... the words come to me and if i dont release them as they come they may never come again, they may be lost forever. so i stumble through the jumble, throwing out whatever words and phrases do come...

when this happens, i often feel as if i come off as some freaky airhead who cant express simple thoughts. but you must understand, hardly any thoughts are simple in my mind. for every thought i have is connected to larger networks of other thoughts and concepts. no thought stands as an island, isolated from any connections. no, never. and depending on the weight i attach to a thought or network those thoughts/networks that may seem so simple are not to me for they are of great power and have mighty potential. those networks are worlds to be explored! little worlds with which i am absolutely fascinated.