monday: day of processing, and projecting plans

so many matters we spoke about this weekend... 

- pitfalls to watch for
- habits to keep up
- practices to make sure we set in place
- receiving my father's blessing
- trusting you to handle all timing, set up and wonderfulness of proposal (basically facing the fact that i am not all-knowing, and that is a very good thing)
- Huntington barn
- seeing sin as the monster/puke (proverbs 26:11) that it is 
- where we each are (esp. emotionally) w/ the season (roller coaster; from 'YAY!' to 'ah holy crap!')
- ought to finish up 101 Qs
- actively (keep) claiming promises of God
- advice from Mama Paff: when marry, make him a list of what I want on which holidays (i.e. calla lily on valentines day, note on mother's day, post-its around the house w/ cute remarks/memories or flowers and sweet note sent to me at work or left on table for anniversary, etc.)

I need to know, I won't be entirely giving up my pursuit as a student, b/c I love it - I need to know, there is a great alternative for me to look forward to. 

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Note to You

Oh, dearie. In all these conversations (important conversations), let us not forget to continue dating and simply enjoying a good time together. I know my tendency will be to talk only about the thoughts swirling my mind that include you, me, our future, engagement, wedding planning, finding me a school, and all things Endicott. 

As you are so great at pulling me back into the moment, please do, pull me back into this place where I am currently residing. Ball State, sophomore year, involved in House Church, spending development time with various people (Alison, Brittanie, McKenna, Megan, Ciara, Shannon, Lisa and Ryan)... ask me about things of the week, as I'll sure seek to learn about yours. 

I want us both to enjoy this time with all its richness... that surely includes us walking with the people we currently live with, sharing our journey with them and allowing our current circumstances to be a part of our individual journeys.  

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Realizations for Future Benefit

- some flexibility w/i structure

   -> allowing myself to roll out of bed late, b/c I have worked out when in my schedule I can make up for that time, allowing myself to go by the feel of things to some extent such as whether or not I stop for coffee before I go to my place of study or whether I can stay and chat for a bit before I move on

- need Sunday (or Monday) to be for reflection, reseat, and layout of the week ahead of me (what must be done, what I'd like to do, how my schedule needs adjusted to make that happen, schedule lunch dates for the week, etc.)

- time outdoors = necessity, healthy, sets me up for better, calmer, more cheerful and productive day (and mind)

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This Week

- logistical steps to ease internal and relational tension

- keep clearing off that which may weigh me down

1. compile 2 potential programs of study and email them to Papa Paff

2. find Huntington wedding barn, ask him to set up a visit for us

3. share what you're processing and pray for each other, with each other

4. finish up 101 Q's