Today

Thoughts from today;

sometimes monday isnt a day to accomplish any of the work, but rather to prepare myself and the resources necessary to accomplish the work for the rest of the days that week.

thoughts from today's Jesus Calling

things do feel out of control, my routines are not running smoothly & my life does not feel predictible, I dont feel so secure...

yet, You have been my help, 
And in the shadow of Your wings I sing for joy
My soul clings to You,
Your right hand upholds me.
I'll grip Your hand tightly & open my eyes to growth opportunities
I will not bemoan the loss of my comfort 
I will accept the challenge of something new, of uncharted territory
I will say 'yes, Lord' do as You please, mold me as Your own
I will trust Your working hands on me &
I will trust Your tender & sufficient presence in all circumstance I will meet

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I was planning on going to a poetry reading... dragged myself to dinner about an hour later than planned... wasn't going to make it to the reading... thought I ought to accomplish at least one thing today, so I'll go to the library... didn't even make it to the library... was drawn in by the light of the sunset on a brick wall... took a seat on a bench, pulled out my notebook and breathed in the airwaves dapper with the songs of birds... and wrote this... 

I'm hardly awake. 

I really don't like these days, 

these physical states in which my body moves slothly, 

my mind flutters at my thoughts of activity. 

strategies predicted to awaken fail and disappoint.

submit yourself; lay limp. 

allow these ways to carry you, 

to twirl you through this day 

the great scene of productivity you seek is but a dream

yes, it too is of a highlight reel

this is your behind the scenes

forgive yourself, rest easy

hear the counsel of your free-winged friends

hear it. perceive it.

while we flutter about, 

they sing

more alive than some of us will ever be

they have known no classroom

no lecture hall no textbook

hear them sing,

and breathe 

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oh Lord, there is so much being asked of me

come Spirit, acknowledged as my confidence.

come wisdom, flowing from Truth and Life You bring.

come peace, a center a mind stayed on You.

come strength, energy, vitality, all these be wholeness Your presence brings

come Jesus, Great High Priest, understanding, You sacrificed Your whole life, that Life be breathed into these dry bones

I am but a tiny piece to the beauty that is His Kingdom -> keep me a vessel, well functioning, that the whole body be strong in harmony.