i guess.. our relationship so often seems too good to be true to me, and i dont see how God could ever let me actually have you for the rest of my life or even for the next few years,  i dont like having you but not getting to be there and enjoy God's gift.. i guess sometimes I'm scared that i want it so much that it's going to be taken away, cause He never had to give me such an amazing gift in the first place, but i dont want to ever have to live without you.