the send off!

Tomorrow morning, around 6 AM, I will be on the road again! But this time is different. I won't be traveling for a couple of hours to explore and return before the work week. No sir. This time, I won't be stopping 'til I hit the east coast. Virginia Beach. And once I'm there, I'll call it my home base for the summer. 

As departure day came closer, I began to notice this... feeling.. I had. Not quite sad, not quite bubbly, not quite easy to describe. 

Following are some of my thoughts as I sat to write through what I was experiencing that I may acknowledge it for whatever it is. 

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 Thursday, 6 June 2013

I am not terribly saddened by leaving. Nor am I bitter toward the separation to come. I am simply recognizing and grieving the close of what has been a wonderful month. A wonderful time of adventures, laughter, visits, friendship, road trips, childish fun, future talk, preparation and relaxation. Lord, You have built me up, warmed my heart and overjoyed me with a lavishing love beyond my capacity to grasp. You have surrounded me with a cloud of supportive voices and reaffirmed the growth that is to come. I am more and more convinced of Your detailed handle on my life each day it seems. Thank You.

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Friday, 7 June 2013

i can hardly explain to you how wonderful you have been to me. how meaningful this past month has been to me. and how dearly i'll hold it in my heart. ..not the actual month, the dates, or detailed memories... but the concepts, ideas, emotions, affirmations, challenges, lessons, promises, claims, and prayers...

prayers of thanksgiving, and honest conversation with the Author and Perfecter of our story and our Great High Priest who understands our every thought and situation.

prayers of endurance, breath, strength, wisdom, and guidance. prayers of crying out on another's behalf. prayers of pain we have felt for another. prayers of surrender, surrendering burdens that our not ours to carry and lives that are truly only bestowed to us as stewards.

i want to learn what it is to be ever gazing upon the face of this Good I call Jesus. I want to know what that name means, Jesus. i want to learn more of what it is He did.. that i may see and know what it is He does, is doing, and will do. I want to know who He is that I may see and know Him in moments unfolding... see Him as each moment unfolds that His Spirit with me may remind me of what He has done and how that alters the current and upcoming moment.